hipincognito

I let the waves of your adoration envelop me,

Romance me,

Draw me in with invitations

Of fun and heat and freedom.



But when you shoved me

Back towards the sand

As you did inevitably,

You left tendrils of seaweed whiplashed

And deep impressions of foam on my heart

That always stayed too long

But you would never acknowledge.

Seashells tossed in the garbage

After a child’s beach adventure.

The seashells remember.



Yet the rush it felt to be cradled by your warmth

As I waded in once again

Drew me closer and closer to the deep,

Where I could dive down

But never reach the floor.



I knew your tides and I knew my own fears.

"I must not travel out too far.

Always keep land in sight.

I will lose myself if get too eager

And try to swallow the saltwater

That makes me float.

Consume too much and it will sap my organs of life,

Shrivel my insides and leave my body lifeless,

Too far for a lifeguard to see.

I must always keep near the shore.”



When I was twenty-one

I drowned in warm, calm waters.



September 2013/April 2014

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